You know, when your lack of self-confidence is the problem that's leading to your mistakes, and the mistakes are digging at your self-confidence, it's really hard to get enough confidence to short-circuit the cycle....

Amen.

*hugs* Good luck. I know how hard it is to try to stop the self-destructive doubting. If you ever need to bitch to someone who can't really do anything other than offer support, my AIM is jlf1110, or there are other ways to find me.