That Explains A Lot
I haven't been posting much here recently. A lot of things I've been meaning to do haven't gotten done - I haven't finished fully planting my garden (I still need to get a few broccoli seedlings and put them in the ground). I haven't gotten my motorcycle out for my first ride of the year yet. I haven't gotten very many good long walks in. And I'm just always so very, very tired. I always feel like there's so much more to do, like life is getting away from me, and like I'm never getting caught up, and I'm caught on a treadmill running ever so slightly faster than I'm capable of managing....
And yeah; I was fighting depression for a while. And I figured that was most of it. And I'm still fighting it, but I'm doing better. And yet I still can't manage to get everything done.
So, on a whim, earlier this week I took a look back through my schedule. And I realized that my last actual day off was.... May 23. And before that, my last day off was May 3.
Not weekday off, not extra vacation day. Those are the only two days in the last month and a half that I haven't worked. Days that I haven't been doing relief work I've been seeing house call patients, or going to continuing education lectures. And most of those days have been 10-12 hour shifts, a lot of them with hour-plus commutes.
Maybe that's why I've been a bit behind on other stuff.....
Of course, realizing this doesn't make me any less exhausted, and it doesn't make it any easier to say no to work. I'm trying to get a new business off the ground; it's hard to decline clients - aside from needing the income, I need the goodwill. Plus I just like being helpful.
Stil, I'm no good to anyone if I'm dragging myself through the day like a zombie. Time to put my foot down and start making myself take at least one day a week with no appointments.....
And yeah; I was fighting depression for a while. And I figured that was most of it. And I'm still fighting it, but I'm doing better. And yet I still can't manage to get everything done.
So, on a whim, earlier this week I took a look back through my schedule. And I realized that my last actual day off was.... May 23. And before that, my last day off was May 3.
Not weekday off, not extra vacation day. Those are the only two days in the last month and a half that I haven't worked. Days that I haven't been doing relief work I've been seeing house call patients, or going to continuing education lectures. And most of those days have been 10-12 hour shifts, a lot of them with hour-plus commutes.
Maybe that's why I've been a bit behind on other stuff.....
Of course, realizing this doesn't make me any less exhausted, and it doesn't make it any easier to say no to work. I'm trying to get a new business off the ground; it's hard to decline clients - aside from needing the income, I need the goodwill. Plus I just like being helpful.
Stil, I'm no good to anyone if I'm dragging myself through the day like a zombie. Time to put my foot down and start making myself take at least one day a week with no appointments.....