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ladysprite) wrote2009-08-14 12:28 pm
ladysprite) wrote2009-08-14 12:28 pm
Self Awareness
I think at least part of what's wrong with the inside of my head right now is from purely physical causes - namely, a lack of physical activity. Over the past year or two, I've become completely dependent on exercise and activity to keep myself feeling sane, healthy, and happy, and I haven't been able to keep it up as much as I'd like, over the past few weeks.
I try to work out in the mornings, and that works fine on days that I don't have to leave for work right after I wake up, but with the hours that I've been working lately, it's been hard to get in a workout on any day other than the weekend. I have my little 10-15 minute focused exercise routines, but that's not what I need right now.
It also doesn't help that, even with weights and modifications, the DVD I have right now feels more or less like a gentle stroll. Maybe a vigorous stroll in a few places, but that's about it.
Sitting here at work, my body feels like it's about to explode. I'm tired to the point of crying, but at the same time I'm edgy and antsy and restless. I want to jump up and down and shake my arms around. I want to do an hour of power yoga. I want to push and pull and stretch and press myself to the limit. God help me, I want to run. I hate running.
I've got a long work day ahead of me, and a night of cooking ahead of that. I don't have time for this. But I've got two new workout DVDs from the library, and the thought of them is much more appealing to me than time communing with the holy trinity of Butter, Sugar, and Vanilla. I think maybe I'll postpone my baking just a little, and see if burning off some of this restless energy does a better job of helping me tame my restless brain.....
I try to work out in the mornings, and that works fine on days that I don't have to leave for work right after I wake up, but with the hours that I've been working lately, it's been hard to get in a workout on any day other than the weekend. I have my little 10-15 minute focused exercise routines, but that's not what I need right now.
It also doesn't help that, even with weights and modifications, the DVD I have right now feels more or less like a gentle stroll. Maybe a vigorous stroll in a few places, but that's about it.
Sitting here at work, my body feels like it's about to explode. I'm tired to the point of crying, but at the same time I'm edgy and antsy and restless. I want to jump up and down and shake my arms around. I want to do an hour of power yoga. I want to push and pull and stretch and press myself to the limit. God help me, I want to run. I hate running.
I've got a long work day ahead of me, and a night of cooking ahead of that. I don't have time for this. But I've got two new workout DVDs from the library, and the thought of them is much more appealing to me than time communing with the holy trinity of Butter, Sugar, and Vanilla. I think maybe I'll postpone my baking just a little, and see if burning off some of this restless energy does a better job of helping me tame my restless brain.....
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