Childhood stays with most of us forever. When they talk about how the years before X are formative, they aren't kidding. We form a lot of our patterns before we're 3, so that's before most of us are really conscious of the world around us, or know what other people are like.

That being said, don't try to measure yourself against where you think you should be, or where your peers are. You are where you are, and you are looking at where you need to be to make yourself happier. That's the best thing you can do for yourself. Choose to grow, and the rest will follow.

*hugs you*