And The Next Day, And The Next....

[ladysprite]

First things first - thank you so much to everyone who offered advice, support, and/or condolences about Moxie. It really means a lot to me, and it does help to know that I have friends who care and understand.

It also helps to work in this industry; I've been lucky enough to have coworkers call and offer their condolences and understanding. If there's one group of people who can accept the pain this causes without questioning, it's vets.

My house feels so empty and quiet right now. I think part of why it's so hard is that I wasn't expecting it to happen so suddenly. I knew she was going downhill, but I had convinced myself she still had months, maybe a year.

In the past week I've dealt with having the flu, cancelling my holiday plans, and now losing my kitten. And this is on top of it being dark and cold and, until today, gray and miserable. And I'm tired, and I'm running out of enthusiasm and positivity, and right now I just want to sleep for a hundred years. I know, intellectually, that the best thing for me is to get out and be active and see people, but all I have the energy for is curling up on the sofa.

This too shall pass....

Comments

[keshwyn]

Soon it will be spring and you will be able to garden in the sun. I know this to be true...because the Burpee catalogue showed up in my mailbox yesterday.

Wishing you crocuses and snowdrop buds in the winter doldrums...

[aries-walker.livejournal.com]

Remember, every day gets a little brighter.

[johnpalmer.livejournal.com]

It will pass, but here's something I think I've learned about myself.

When I just don't have any motivation, and, if I was a child, would need a parental threat to do (whatever) with full blown pouting and protestations that it's horribly unfair, then - I should push myself to be active and social and so forth. I'm depressed or tired, but I just "don't want to" - it's not that I can't. And depressed people have to do things they should enjoy, or they can end up making the depression worse.

(Not all of them - if I'm depressed, and there's a weekly movie night, I can skip a movie night - maybe even two. But, e.g., I wouldn't have skipped a Callahanicon, back in the day. And skipping too many movie nights feeds the depression.)


When I feel tired and feel that, if I was a child, I'd get that threat, and my response would be to throw a tantrum, be punished, and only carry on with dire warnings of worse consequences over my head, then - then I'm fatigued/exhausted. It's time to rest, except in extraordinary circumstances.

I don't know if you have the same "inner child" feelings as I do, but I think that this kind of guide can be useful for a lot of people - learning the difference between unmotivated/maybe depressed, and actually exhausted.

You could well be exhausted - it wouldn't be a bit surprising if you were. If so, please don't push yourself unless it is the kind of extraordinary circumstances that merits it.

[mamatiger.livejournal.com]

If you're cold, turn the heat up in the house. Take a hot bath. Get a heating pad, or hot water bottle. Being cold is bad for you, so find a way to warm up! Blankets, socks, slippers, sweaters, hoodies, whatever it takes. (You have a husband, do you not? Body heat FTW!)

I also suggest cocoa, but that's just me. Make some s'mores in your microwave.

Remember the things that make you happy, and do them, and let them cheer you up.

[ladymondegreen.livejournal.com]

Give yourself some time to grieve and the recover from grieving. It's not like this process doesn't steal your energy, so let yourself recharge without guilt.

We are climbing out of the dark days now, and soon there will be sun again.

*many comforting hugs*