2006-07-01

ladysprite: (momongo)
2006-07-01 11:48 am

Wishing and Wanting

I want to go dancing.

I'm tired, and I've been working too much, and my knee still hurts, and none of that matters. I crave it, I feel it in my feet and my arms and my heart and my toes - every time I move, more than anything it wants to turn into a dance. I move my hand, maybe from keyboard to mouse or to reach for something on the table next to me, and somehow it becomes a reach, a beckon, a pose. My toes are pointing, my shoulders are fighting to slide to one side, then roll back, and my whole body is aching with sitting still - if I stand up, I'll be lost.

Right now, it's Broadway on the radio. That doesn't matter. I could dance to orchestral music right now. I could dance to background conversation.

It's Saturday morning. I have errands to run, and hats to buy to protect my delicate nose from the Hawaiian sunshine. I have orders from my doctor to stay off my feet as much as possible. Somehow I think flinging myself around the room, stomping and leaping and spinning, doesn't quite match those instructions.

I don't want to turn off the radio, though. That would just make it worse. Right now, at least, I can dance in my mind even if I can't dance with my body. Soon, though, I'm going to give up fighting and just throw myself into the music. It'll hurt, but it's going to be so incredibly worth it....