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ladysprite) wrote2005-05-30 12:51 am
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It Always Happens Like This
I had something witty and creative and at least vaguely artistic all written out here, and then somehow my computer ate it and I couldn't find it again no matter how hard I tried. And I was going to reconstruct it, honest, but for the life of me I couldn't remember exactly what I said - just that it was far better than the blunt fact-spewing I'm about to engage in.
But I'm tired, and all my creativity was just used up, so blunt fact-spewing is what you'll get.
See, I always plan these big gatherings, at my house or at picnics or just about anywhere. And I always wind up convincing myself that noone is going to actually show up, or that if they do it'll just be a couple of people, and that they'll stick around for maybe an hour or two and then wander off to do something much more important and fun.
And then I wind up half-boggled and slightly intimidated when a large happy horde descends upon me. And it's good, and it's fun, and it's exactly what I suggested, but it's nowhere near what I expected. So I wind up having a lot of fun, but having to run away and hide for a little while in the middle when things get just a little too loud and boisterous, and I need to put my head back on straight and figure out how to deal with the fact that there's a heck of a lot of people here and I don't have quite enough chairs and maybe I should have made two cakes and what if people aren't having fun, or think I'm being rude by hiding at my own gathering.
I don't mean to be rude, honest, and I'm glad everyone is there, and I don't wish things were different at all. And I apologize to anyone who was here today if it seemed that way. It's just been a while since we've had a gathering here, and I forget sometimes how exuberant things can get.
So. I'm really sorry if I seemed less social than I should have been, and thank you all for coming and sharing the day, and I promise next time I'll be better prepared. I'll even have extra baked goods, though I don't know quite what to do about chairs.....
But I'm tired, and all my creativity was just used up, so blunt fact-spewing is what you'll get.
See, I always plan these big gatherings, at my house or at picnics or just about anywhere. And I always wind up convincing myself that noone is going to actually show up, or that if they do it'll just be a couple of people, and that they'll stick around for maybe an hour or two and then wander off to do something much more important and fun.
And then I wind up half-boggled and slightly intimidated when a large happy horde descends upon me. And it's good, and it's fun, and it's exactly what I suggested, but it's nowhere near what I expected. So I wind up having a lot of fun, but having to run away and hide for a little while in the middle when things get just a little too loud and boisterous, and I need to put my head back on straight and figure out how to deal with the fact that there's a heck of a lot of people here and I don't have quite enough chairs and maybe I should have made two cakes and what if people aren't having fun, or think I'm being rude by hiding at my own gathering.
I don't mean to be rude, honest, and I'm glad everyone is there, and I don't wish things were different at all. And I apologize to anyone who was here today if it seemed that way. It's just been a while since we've had a gathering here, and I forget sometimes how exuberant things can get.
So. I'm really sorry if I seemed less social than I should have been, and thank you all for coming and sharing the day, and I promise next time I'll be better prepared. I'll even have extra baked goods, though I don't know quite what to do about chairs.....
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As for chairs: I don't really think you could put more in there. Given line-of-sight issues, having some folks sitting on the floor was probably necessary. You might want to invest in one or two more large squishy pillows for the folks on the floor, but that's really the only thing I'd change...