Over And Done

[ladysprite]

Today sucked.

Today was incredibly, terribly, horribly, gut-wrenchingly, miserably bad. Nauseating and terrifying and bleak and despair-laden. Mostly in a work-related fashion.

(Everything looks like it's going to be fine, but my anti-nightmare campaign has just been set back at least a month.)

But.... Someone is looking out for me, because the most glorious thunderstorm is going on outside, over my head. Lightning flashing to brighten my world, warm laughing caresses of thunder rolling over my body, cool rain sheeting down, and, thank all the powers that be, a few moments of stolen free time to stand outside in it and feel the embrace of the storm and reach my toes down to the ground and stretch my fingertips up to the air and let it all wash over me and carry everything away and remind me that there are Powers out there that care.

I feel more human and safe than I thought I would be able to. If only the storm continues like this, I might just be able to sleep tonight.....

Comments

[madamruppy.livejournal.com]

Sorry about the sucky day. But I do agree about the rejuvenating effects of a good storm. I love the way it makes me feel and all the ionization in the air. Yummy.

[thebeardedone.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Just know that you are loved by more people than get to see you weekly. I'm one of them. See you next month!

[new-man.livejournal.com]

But.... Someone is looking out for me, because the most glorious thunderstorm is going on outside, over my head.

You're just full of contradictions. It would be in character for a thunderstorm to send you scurrying to hide under the bed... and here you are revelling in them ;-)

Sorry about the bad day. Today is a different day.

[ladysprite.livejournal.com]

Huh - it's interesting to hear how I seem from outside, because honestly the thought never occurred to me.

I admit, I tend to be a worrier, but most of the things I worry about are intangibles. I'm not afraid of many physical things - bugs, storms, darkness, heights, or most of the other most common phobia triggers. Just about everything that scares me can be boiled down to 'fear of looking stupid' or 'fear of losing something or someone I love.'

Honestly, for physical things, I'm kind of a thrill-seeker. Loud storms, fast cars, motorcycles, whitewater rafting, climbing; I'd love to try hang-gliding or parachuting someday. I'm not quite sure I understand the psychology underneath this, but now that I recognize it, it's something interesting about myself to poke at....