Two Steps Forward, One Step Back

[ladysprite]

I thought, for a little while, that I was starting to get over my body image issues. I was healthy, I was active, and I was more or less content with myself, physically - not overwhelmed with joy, but comfortable, at least, which is more than I've ever been.

It seems, though, that I just replaced one flavor of neurosis with another. I was content, and comfortable, as long as I was active. I'm benched right now - bronchitis has left me completely sedentary, and it's driving me completely bonkers.

I haven't been able to work out for almost a week, and it feels like forever. And every day that I'm stuck sitting on the sofa, watching tv and doing crossword puzzles, I just get more jittery and frustrated. I can feel every bite of food settling in for a long stay. I can feel my backside getting wider and my body vanishing under an ever-expanding layer of padding. I feel my strength and my muscles melting away, and the urge to climb onto the scale at work two, three, four times a day; to get out the tape measure and start tracking my descent into flab is almost overwhelming.

I know it's absurd. I know it's not reasonable; it's one week. Maybe two. And I know that if I give in and try to work out tomorrow I'll just wheeze and cough myself into an even worse state. But I can't start to move around soon, I'm going to go mad.

I have no idea how I made it through a year of forced inactivity. I need to figure that out, and remember it.....

Comments

[crash-mccormick.livejournal.com]

Consider a static exercise regime like Calinetics if in need or exercise and not able to get out. Point focused muscle work don correctly should be feasible even if unable to sustain extended deep breathing. After tantric sex and swimming probably the next best choice for reduced impact exercise.