I am so sorry. I've been through this six times now, myself, and it *never* gets any easier. Each cat is my very special child, and I love each of them as family, and I am so very sorry you're having to go through it now. I send hugs. If you need anything, please do not hesitate to let me know. I'm grieving for you, and sending my best energy to Tristan.

And on a similar note... after this is over, light a candle in a window for three nights running to call his spirit home. I've done this every time, and I swear that, at different times, I have known *for sure* that one or more of mine have come to stay for a while.