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ladysprite) wrote2012-08-07 10:02 am
ladysprite) wrote2012-08-07 10:02 am
Doing My Best To Ask For What I Need
So for those of you not on my deeper filters, things have been a bit rough here as of late. I've been coping with a lot of friends going through crises of their own, of various levels of severity and danger, and doing my best to help them, and handling the accompanying stress and worry that goes along with that. My work situation is... stressful, exhausting, and a source of a lot of anxiety on its own. And I lost a close family member yesterday, in sudden, unexpected, and emotionally traumatic circumstances.
I haven't completely fallen apart. But I'm holding myself together with the psychic equivalent of bubblegum and duct tape, and the cracks are starting to show. I'm exhausted, I'm scared, and I'm working very hard at not falling back into negative thought patterns, but sometimes I can't help it.
So please, if you can, handle with care? I'm a little fragile right now, so do your best to be patient if I react in unreasonable and broken ways. I'm not asking for a free pass, but maybe just let me know if I'm falling back into old patterns, instead of just writing me off.
A few people have asked what they can do to help, if anything. And, thinking about it, the most important thing I can ask for is - reach out to me? My instinct, when I'm hurting like this, is to hide and run away. Not because I want to, but because I start believing that nobody wants me around, or because I'm so overwhelmed that I freeze like a tharn rabbit, and can't muster the cope to move from the sofa or reach out to another person.
So. Not needed, not required. But if you do want to help, email me. Text me. IM me. If you're local and have time on your hands and want to get together, say so. Because goodness knows I could use the distraction right about now....
I haven't completely fallen apart. But I'm holding myself together with the psychic equivalent of bubblegum and duct tape, and the cracks are starting to show. I'm exhausted, I'm scared, and I'm working very hard at not falling back into negative thought patterns, but sometimes I can't help it.
So please, if you can, handle with care? I'm a little fragile right now, so do your best to be patient if I react in unreasonable and broken ways. I'm not asking for a free pass, but maybe just let me know if I'm falling back into old patterns, instead of just writing me off.
A few people have asked what they can do to help, if anything. And, thinking about it, the most important thing I can ask for is - reach out to me? My instinct, when I'm hurting like this, is to hide and run away. Not because I want to, but because I start believing that nobody wants me around, or because I'm so overwhelmed that I freeze like a tharn rabbit, and can't muster the cope to move from the sofa or reach out to another person.
So. Not needed, not required. But if you do want to help, email me. Text me. IM me. If you're local and have time on your hands and want to get together, say so. Because goodness knows I could use the distraction right about now....
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