I'm sorry if I misphrased things, because that's not the impression I want to give at all.
My mother is a dear and an angel and a wonderful friend to me, and she honestly and truly wants me to have the bestest of everything. She wants this to be perfect for me, and to be perfectly what I want. Unfortunately, she also wants to be able to give me the sun and the moon and the stars, and she wants me to be able to have something huge and fancy. And she feels like she's a failure because she can't even offer me that.
She's not a failure. She's doing more than I thought she would be able to, and she's the reason we're at least having a catered reception instead of a potluck in our yard. But because she feels bad about not being able to drop five figures on my Special Day, I feel bad that my not being able to have that kind of wedding makes her feel bad, and it's a whole unfortunate spiral of guilt and upset.....
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Date: 2004-04-05 02:55 pm (UTC)My mother is a dear and an angel and a wonderful friend to me, and she honestly and truly wants me to have the bestest of everything. She wants this to be perfect for me, and to be perfectly what I want. Unfortunately, she also wants to be able to give me the sun and the moon and the stars, and she wants me to be able to have something huge and fancy. And she feels like she's a failure because she can't even offer me that.
She's not a failure. She's doing more than I thought she would be able to, and she's the reason we're at least having a catered reception instead of a potluck in our yard. But because she feels bad about not being able to drop five figures on my Special Day, I feel bad that my not being able to have that kind of wedding makes her feel bad, and it's a whole unfortunate spiral of guilt and upset.....