Returning to Equilibrium

It's fascinating how, sometimes, just acknowledging something out loud can make it better. I feel as though having officially recognized my issues, they're much smaller and handle-able. It's like having headaches for weeks, and having the world look all grey and warped, and suddenly realizing that you've been wearing smudged glasses. The smudges may still be there, but suddenly what you're seeing makes more sense, and you can see around the edges to realize that the world is still there outside.

Of course, it also helps to have a horde of amazing friends who are more than willing to leap forward and remind me that there's still fun to be had and love to be shared, and generally wrap me in a warm cuddly blanket of socialization over the next week. Fortified with that, I can actually start putting myself back together. I can look on my projects as enjoyable pastimes instead of onerous burdens, I can convince myself that it's not cheating to cheer myself up peeking through my Dr. Becky's Wonderful Book of Cute Patient Pictures, and I can actually imagine things continuing to get better.

So. Warm, sunny day. I had an actual lunch break for the first time in years. I have a cat on my lap, and a sweetheart who bakes me brownies, and a DVD of The Storyteller, and a new book from the library, and come Monday I'll have time to work in my garden. I'm not out of the tunnel yet, but at least I can see that it's just a tunnel, and not a grave.

Thank you....