Mmmmm

I need to learn to obsess less, plan in a more general manner, and trust in my friends and fate and our general ability to have fun.

In spite of my consecutively overplanning, giving up, re-siezing control, obsessing, and giving up and abandoning the whole project, yesterday somehow wound up being practically perfect in every way. There was enough sunshine to placate the solar-powered life forms like myself, enough shade to stay cool and keep the pasta salad from melting, enough food to keep everyone happy, enough people to make a pleasant crowd (and different enough from my usual party-going gang to be intriguing),no bugs, no rain, and some halfway decent music.

I am happy. I feel like a sponge left to soak in a warm pool of sun and friendliness, until it replaced everything else in all the spaces of me. I think right now if someone were to cut me, I might bleed sunlight instead of blood.

And now, off to find something to do outside, to take advantage of the second gorgeous day in a row....