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Good For Me
Jan. 25th, 2005 12:03 pmI think having a new job is good for me. I think having a stable, committed, outwardly-long-term-confirmed relationship is good for me. I think that making a decision to shuck responsibilities I no longer enjoy is good for me; at the same time, so is having a position that allows me to belong. Also, having a positive and demonstrative circle of friends is good for me.
I managed to make it through Arisia this year with absolutely no downswings, no emotional crises, no external or internal bouts of histrionic self-loathing, no incidences of 'must leave now and go home,' and no need to cling to my friends like an empathic remora. There was one bout of hysterics, but that was in the middle of a LARP and highly appropriate given the circumstances.
I know this probably sounds like a rather pathetic thing to be proud of, given the fact that I'm an adult and supposedly a mature, stable individual, but it's a bit of an accomplishment for me, especially given the amount of life-instability seething around me going into the con. In spite of everything I mentioned above, my world is still less than stable and smooth - but I'm managing to move through it, instead of being knocked over and trampled by it.
Anyway, it was a good con. I honestly don't know what I was doing for much of it; I didn't get to see as many people as I thought I would or spend as much time socializing with the people I usually socialize with, but I certainly managed to stay busy and entertained. And the dance was one of the best in living memory.
I had fun. Good for me.
I managed to make it through Arisia this year with absolutely no downswings, no emotional crises, no external or internal bouts of histrionic self-loathing, no incidences of 'must leave now and go home,' and no need to cling to my friends like an empathic remora. There was one bout of hysterics, but that was in the middle of a LARP and highly appropriate given the circumstances.
I know this probably sounds like a rather pathetic thing to be proud of, given the fact that I'm an adult and supposedly a mature, stable individual, but it's a bit of an accomplishment for me, especially given the amount of life-instability seething around me going into the con. In spite of everything I mentioned above, my world is still less than stable and smooth - but I'm managing to move through it, instead of being knocked over and trampled by it.
Anyway, it was a good con. I honestly don't know what I was doing for much of it; I didn't get to see as many people as I thought I would or spend as much time socializing with the people I usually socialize with, but I certainly managed to stay busy and entertained. And the dance was one of the best in living memory.
I had fun. Good for me.
