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It Always Happens Like This
May. 30th, 2005 12:51 amI had something witty and creative and at least vaguely artistic all written out here, and then somehow my computer ate it and I couldn't find it again no matter how hard I tried. And I was going to reconstruct it, honest, but for the life of me I couldn't remember exactly what I said - just that it was far better than the blunt fact-spewing I'm about to engage in.
But I'm tired, and all my creativity was just used up, so blunt fact-spewing is what you'll get.
See, I always plan these big gatherings, at my house or at picnics or just about anywhere. And I always wind up convincing myself that noone is going to actually show up, or that if they do it'll just be a couple of people, and that they'll stick around for maybe an hour or two and then wander off to do something much more important and fun.
And then I wind up half-boggled and slightly intimidated when a large happy horde descends upon me. And it's good, and it's fun, and it's exactly what I suggested, but it's nowhere near what I expected. So I wind up having a lot of fun, but having to run away and hide for a little while in the middle when things get just a little too loud and boisterous, and I need to put my head back on straight and figure out how to deal with the fact that there's a heck of a lot of people here and I don't have quite enough chairs and maybe I should have made two cakes and what if people aren't having fun, or think I'm being rude by hiding at my own gathering.
I don't mean to be rude, honest, and I'm glad everyone is there, and I don't wish things were different at all. And I apologize to anyone who was here today if it seemed that way. It's just been a while since we've had a gathering here, and I forget sometimes how exuberant things can get.
So. I'm really sorry if I seemed less social than I should have been, and thank you all for coming and sharing the day, and I promise next time I'll be better prepared. I'll even have extra baked goods, though I don't know quite what to do about chairs.....
But I'm tired, and all my creativity was just used up, so blunt fact-spewing is what you'll get.
See, I always plan these big gatherings, at my house or at picnics or just about anywhere. And I always wind up convincing myself that noone is going to actually show up, or that if they do it'll just be a couple of people, and that they'll stick around for maybe an hour or two and then wander off to do something much more important and fun.
And then I wind up half-boggled and slightly intimidated when a large happy horde descends upon me. And it's good, and it's fun, and it's exactly what I suggested, but it's nowhere near what I expected. So I wind up having a lot of fun, but having to run away and hide for a little while in the middle when things get just a little too loud and boisterous, and I need to put my head back on straight and figure out how to deal with the fact that there's a heck of a lot of people here and I don't have quite enough chairs and maybe I should have made two cakes and what if people aren't having fun, or think I'm being rude by hiding at my own gathering.
I don't mean to be rude, honest, and I'm glad everyone is there, and I don't wish things were different at all. And I apologize to anyone who was here today if it seemed that way. It's just been a while since we've had a gathering here, and I forget sometimes how exuberant things can get.
So. I'm really sorry if I seemed less social than I should have been, and thank you all for coming and sharing the day, and I promise next time I'll be better prepared. I'll even have extra baked goods, though I don't know quite what to do about chairs.....
