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Oh, No; Not Again
Nov. 15th, 2007 06:43 amHm. This seems familiar....
Right knee feels just a bit off, yesterday and this morning. A little swollen, a little uncomfortable, twinges when I'm walking down a flight of stairs or when I have to kneel down to examine a patient. Nothing too serious, just minor warning signs.
No. No, no, no, no, no, goddamn no. The last time this happened, I wound up unable to make it from the bedroom to the living room without a cane, or to walk more than a block even with the cane. I lost almost an entire year of my life to this damn knee, and that is *NOT* allowed to happen again. Not now, not so soon after I got better, not ever.
I'm probably overreacting. I probably just bumped or twisted it, it's probably nothing, I'll probably be fine. But damnit, this is exactly the same way that it started last year, and I didn't realize how much it was possible to hate and fear a thing until I woke up this morning and it was still all swolley and achy, and I started thinking about the prospect of facing that series of events again. Or even worse, facing it knowing that surgery failed, and there are no further treatment options beyond 'just deal with it.'
Time for me to start chowing down Advil like M&M's, and avoiding any unnecessary motion. Please, whatever powers might be listening, don't let me start down the slippery slope of knee injury again. Let this go away....
Right knee feels just a bit off, yesterday and this morning. A little swollen, a little uncomfortable, twinges when I'm walking down a flight of stairs or when I have to kneel down to examine a patient. Nothing too serious, just minor warning signs.
No. No, no, no, no, no, goddamn no. The last time this happened, I wound up unable to make it from the bedroom to the living room without a cane, or to walk more than a block even with the cane. I lost almost an entire year of my life to this damn knee, and that is *NOT* allowed to happen again. Not now, not so soon after I got better, not ever.
I'm probably overreacting. I probably just bumped or twisted it, it's probably nothing, I'll probably be fine. But damnit, this is exactly the same way that it started last year, and I didn't realize how much it was possible to hate and fear a thing until I woke up this morning and it was still all swolley and achy, and I started thinking about the prospect of facing that series of events again. Or even worse, facing it knowing that surgery failed, and there are no further treatment options beyond 'just deal with it.'
Time for me to start chowing down Advil like M&M's, and avoiding any unnecessary motion. Please, whatever powers might be listening, don't let me start down the slippery slope of knee injury again. Let this go away....
