Breathing Again

Thank you.

Thank you God, thank you friends who put in good words and good thoughts and prayers and hopes, thank you to the world, and thank you most of all to my patient, angelic, amazing husband.

Because finally, after 14 months, umbran has a job. It's not perfect, and it may not be permanent - it's a 3-month internship that has the potential to hopefully become something permanent - and the internship doesn't pay quite as well as a full-time job itself would. But it's a job. And if nothing goes wrong, it'll become a permanent, full-time job.

I feel like I can breathe, finally. This makes life look a lot less like something to endure until I'm set free, and a lot more like something I could maybe almost enjoy. Three months of not having to worry about the mortgage, and losing the house. No more wondering if cutting off the house phone will save enough money to pay the car insurance. We can fix the air conditioning in my car, and start putting money back into the vacation account.

It's not the end of the tunnel, but I can see it from here. And this is a lever he can use with the other companies where he's been interviewing. And I have never felt so glad to have been proved so wrong in my pessimism and gloom.

We're going to survive this....