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ladyspriteApologies to those of you reading who aren't larpers; I'm about to babble delightedly about something that will likely make little to no sense for you. I promise a return to sense, or at least to a different genre of nonsense, as soon as I am rested and coherent again - whenever that may be.
Threads of Damocles. Threads, Threads, Threads. Wow.
I've been playing this campaign since the first game, and it's been a bit up and down for me, and I had honestly been wondering if it was the right game for me. I've got a very clear roleplaying style of my own, and a very clear communication style, and this is worlds different from anything I've done before, even other campaigns. But I decided to have faith, and keep pushing at it, and start actively trying to find solutions to my problems, instead of just soldiering on bravely but unhappily.
And... thank all the powers that be that I did. I don't know quite what it was that worked differently this past weekend, or why - maybe it was being able to get involved in ritual-writing for my character (and many thanks to everyone who let me help with that!), maybe it was just being in a better mood and more open to being approached, maybe it was other players figuring out that I needed to be interacted with, maybe it was just that I needed to be patient and wait for things to hit their stride, because God knows they did, and I had a blast.
Holy cats, but that was good. Drama, and story, and success, and failure, and moments of character bonding that just felt perfect, and chances to work with players and GM's that I haven't known before, which always brings the funny-awkward-exciting New Relationship Energy to a game, and.... yeah, wow.
I just need to hold onto this, and remember it, and figure out what I need to do to keep it up and help it happen again at the next session, and the next. And a thousand thank-yous to everyone at the game, GMs and players and cast and even the wacky karate guy in the hotel room next to ours who seemed to delight in checking out all the costumes and discussing the importance of hobbies to a healthy lifestyle.
Now, to survive the 11-hour workday. It's utterly worth the fatigue, though....
Threads of Damocles. Threads, Threads, Threads. Wow.
I've been playing this campaign since the first game, and it's been a bit up and down for me, and I had honestly been wondering if it was the right game for me. I've got a very clear roleplaying style of my own, and a very clear communication style, and this is worlds different from anything I've done before, even other campaigns. But I decided to have faith, and keep pushing at it, and start actively trying to find solutions to my problems, instead of just soldiering on bravely but unhappily.
And... thank all the powers that be that I did. I don't know quite what it was that worked differently this past weekend, or why - maybe it was being able to get involved in ritual-writing for my character (and many thanks to everyone who let me help with that!), maybe it was just being in a better mood and more open to being approached, maybe it was other players figuring out that I needed to be interacted with, maybe it was just that I needed to be patient and wait for things to hit their stride, because God knows they did, and I had a blast.
Holy cats, but that was good. Drama, and story, and success, and failure, and moments of character bonding that just felt perfect, and chances to work with players and GM's that I haven't known before, which always brings the funny-awkward-exciting New Relationship Energy to a game, and.... yeah, wow.
I just need to hold onto this, and remember it, and figure out what I need to do to keep it up and help it happen again at the next session, and the next. And a thousand thank-yous to everyone at the game, GMs and players and cast and even the wacky karate guy in the hotel room next to ours who seemed to delight in checking out all the costumes and discussing the importance of hobbies to a healthy lifestyle.
Now, to survive the 11-hour workday. It's utterly worth the fatigue, though....
