Failing to Hide

[ladysprite]

I have a flaw in my self-perception that I need to correct.

Okay, I'll be honest; I have several flaws in my self-perception that I probably ought to correct. But there's one in particular that I've been banging into more and more often lately, and I'm slowly being forced to accept that my concept of myself doesn't quite mesh with reality.

I have a very strong conviction that I am utterly forgettable. I just assume that people who haven't actively interacted with me extensively will almost certainly and completely fail to remember me at all. In some ways this makes life a lot easier - it's easy for me to justify not trying to remember other people, since I can rest assured that they won't bother remembering me. In other ways, it makes life harder - more than once I've embarrassed myself reintroducing myself to people based on the idea that there's no way they'll recall who I am.

Slowly but surely, though, reality is chipping away at this idea. I think the final clod of dirt was thrown onto the coffin of this illusion this afternoon at work. Halfway through an appointment today, a client paused to ask me if I remembered them, elucidating that through some strange set of links, our ex-SO's were involved with each other, and also that we had met at a party once.

In 1994.

I have no earthly way to comprehend how this person can remember me at this point, but they clearly did, and it took a moment of fumbling on my part before I could figure out quite how to respond.

Clearly, I'm not quite as forgettable as I'd like to imagine I am.

Comments

[dagibbs.livejournal.com]

No, Becky dear, you are anything but forgettable.