Running On Empty
Jul. 7th, 2007 08:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ladyspriteI hate doing this, but I have to admit it to both myself and the rest of the world. I'm running out of energy, and running out of cope.
Between house-hunting, trying to keep up the enthusiasm and effort of fitting into a new job, the emotional tension of my sweetie's transitional work situation, preparing for Pennsic, rehearsing for an upcoming Boston Babydolls performance, trying to pack and plan for traveling to DC next weekend, keeping things rolling for the campaign LARP I'm playing, general family worries, and a few other situations that I can't really write about here, I feel like I'm juggling chainsaws. And it's taking everything I have to keep from dropping one and cutting off a body part I can't survive without.
I'm hanging in there right now - I'm on the frazzled edge of sanity, but at least I haven't crossed the line yet. I'm managing to sleep a little better, and I have absolutely no interest in dropping any of the projects I'm already involved in, but I'm cutting back on *everything* else.
So I apologize if I seem to be vanishing into myself over the next few weeks. I know I haven't been posting as much as I usually do, and I'm probably going to be bailing on a few social engagements. Right now, though, I think I owe it to myself to take any spare minutes I get and spend them curled up by myself or with my sweetie, doing my best to recharge.
It'll get better. I just have to keep telling myself that. Things will calm down, and then I won't feel panicked and overwhelmed all the time, and once I'm not feeling panicked, I'll be able to relax and do better.
Right?
Between house-hunting, trying to keep up the enthusiasm and effort of fitting into a new job, the emotional tension of my sweetie's transitional work situation, preparing for Pennsic, rehearsing for an upcoming Boston Babydolls performance, trying to pack and plan for traveling to DC next weekend, keeping things rolling for the campaign LARP I'm playing, general family worries, and a few other situations that I can't really write about here, I feel like I'm juggling chainsaws. And it's taking everything I have to keep from dropping one and cutting off a body part I can't survive without.
I'm hanging in there right now - I'm on the frazzled edge of sanity, but at least I haven't crossed the line yet. I'm managing to sleep a little better, and I have absolutely no interest in dropping any of the projects I'm already involved in, but I'm cutting back on *everything* else.
So I apologize if I seem to be vanishing into myself over the next few weeks. I know I haven't been posting as much as I usually do, and I'm probably going to be bailing on a few social engagements. Right now, though, I think I owe it to myself to take any spare minutes I get and spend them curled up by myself or with my sweetie, doing my best to recharge.
It'll get better. I just have to keep telling myself that. Things will calm down, and then I won't feel panicked and overwhelmed all the time, and once I'm not feeling panicked, I'll be able to relax and do better.
Right?
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Crunchy times
Date: 2007-07-08 12:37 pm (UTC)See you at Pennsic at least. Swing by Kilkenny or the Period Games Tent and say hi or let me know what I can do to help.