Hanging In There

[ladysprite]

You guys are pretty damn good with your prayers and thoughts and wishes and candles. It's only been two days, and I'm starting to be able to use my leg again.

After spending all of yesterday imitating an inanimate object, I'm actually feeling a little bit better today. I still can't straighten my leg all the way, but I didn't wake myself up screaming when I rolled over in my sleep last night, and I can get around the house with a cane or hobbling from prop to prop, instead of needing crutches to go from the sofa to the kitchen. I am hoping as hard as I can that this means that I'm dealing with a more transitory problem than a torn meniscus - if there's any way I can get out of this situation without surgery, I'll be unendingly grateful - and that going back to work tomorrow won't undo all the good that this sedentary weekend has done.

I've managed to avoid falling into a completely horrible mood, also, thanks to the presence of good friends, Top Chef marathons, an impressive stack of crafting projects, and the new issue of 'Fine Cooking: Cookies' - it's not *quite* too early to start planning this season's holiday baking. I'm bored and achy, but neither homicidal nor suicidal. And that's something, I guess.

I had it brought home to me today, by a friend who called to find out why I had apparently vanished off the face of the earth a month ago, just how much crap I've been through lately. Car accidents, serious work problems, overbooking, performance (fun, but still stressy), financial woes, travel, injury, pushing my own emotional boundaries... and I'm tired, and frustrated, but I'm still here.

I know I've been less than present lately, and I've probably been less than pleasant, as well. At the same time, though, I'm a tiny bit proud of myself for not falling apart utterly. So - apologies and gratitude beyond belief to all of y'all that I've been leaning on, and a plea for just a little more patience. With any luck the universe will get tired of kicking me around sometime soon, and I can eventually spring back to being a little ray of sunshine again.....

Comments

[aries-walker.livejournal.com]

I'm a tiny bit proud of myself for not falling apart utterly.

You're not the only one, sugar.

[denimskater.livejournal.com]

Good wishes seem not enough, so in addition to lots of those, here's a cookie tip:

Add an extra egg yolk to your recipe, the cookies will stay soft/moist a lot longer, so you can get away with baking them a day or two earlier than you usually would for an event/gifting.

go you!

[evcelt.livejournal.com]

keeping you in my prayers...

[metaphysick.livejournal.com]

Still up for hanging out this week? (I'll totally understand if not, but I figure that it can't hurt to ask, as it's sometimes nice to have company when muddling through an injury.)

[pagawne.livejournal.com]

Take care of that leg, but, yes, you are doing wonderfully well, and I, for one, am very proud of you.

[johnpalmer.livejournal.com]

I'm glad your knee is recovering, and I hope that if they do have to do surgery, it's something like "we found out exactly what's wrong, and this fixes it, more-or-less forever".

Good thoughts and warm, healing energy sent....

[gmkieran.livejournal.com]

more *hugs*, more healing, much love! miss you guys! wish I didn't live so dratted far away.