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ladyspriteThis was the year that I finally had to invoke legal action to stop my father from contacting me. It was the year I cut off all contact with that half of my family.
This was the year that three of my friends died in one week.
This was the year that I spent four months throwing up everything I ate, and being told by doctors that it was all in my head.
This was the year that I watched in horror and disbelief as my country crashed and burned.
This was the year that I learned just how extensive and disgusting the abuse I was subjected to as a child was.
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This was the year that my business took off and became not just self-supporting but me-supporting. By next year, if I wanted to, I could quit relief work completely.
This was the year that I was accepted into a program that will culminate in me becoming one of the world's first certified professionals in my field.
This was the year that I learned how to put my own well-being ahead of that of my abuser.
This was the year that I stopped being afraid of cameras.
This was the year that I let myself be open to friendships, and found so many amazing people because of it.
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I have no words for how mixed my feelings are about 2016. I have no idea of what 2017 will bring. I am a sea of confusion and emotions right now....
This was the year that three of my friends died in one week.
This was the year that I spent four months throwing up everything I ate, and being told by doctors that it was all in my head.
This was the year that I watched in horror and disbelief as my country crashed and burned.
This was the year that I learned just how extensive and disgusting the abuse I was subjected to as a child was.
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This was the year that my business took off and became not just self-supporting but me-supporting. By next year, if I wanted to, I could quit relief work completely.
This was the year that I was accepted into a program that will culminate in me becoming one of the world's first certified professionals in my field.
This was the year that I learned how to put my own well-being ahead of that of my abuser.
This was the year that I stopped being afraid of cameras.
This was the year that I let myself be open to friendships, and found so many amazing people because of it.
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I have no words for how mixed my feelings are about 2016. I have no idea of what 2017 will bring. I am a sea of confusion and emotions right now....
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Date: 2017-01-05 03:14 am (UTC)And you'll get through it. I can't tell you how, but you will. You're tough. I'd say "strong" but often strong people are carrying the heaviest loads and don't feel strong, so I'll skip that.
It will also have love, and joy, and the chance for you to make a difference in many ways - some that you're becoming an old hand at, and some you don't know you can do yet. (They might be part of the pains/trials/confusion - but you might just be truly amazing and getting through it. It won't feel that way at the time, most likely....)
Be well - and be happy, when you can.