Silks 2 Week 3

[ladysprite]

Better class today. I think that's largely because of a combination of less climbing and less pain - I'm still the weakest in the class in general, but at least I'm not falling, crying, or having to sit things out.

I'm slowly figuring out how to work with my teacher, though I admit I still can't cope with her mandatory 'everybody list one thing you were proud of today' at the end of class. I understand what she's trying to do, but... I can't force myself to brag publicly, even under the best of circumstances, and especially not when I honestly feel like I haven't reached a point of mastery where I can take pride in my achievements.

She's trying to force me to play along, and I don't know what to do. I understand that she wants to have us be a team as a class, and that she wants to make us all feel good about ourselves, but at the same time, it's like needles under my fingernails making me be all braggy and arrogant and obnoxious and pretend to a pride I don't feel. I don't know what to do.

Anyway. On to what we did this week....



Standard climb, split silks descent, stop before we reach the floor, and climb again on the opposite side

Catcher's lock

Catcher's lock in the air (I desperately need to work on my mid-air straddle-ups)

Same-side knee lock into same-side hip key

Opposite side hip key

Rebecca splits

I've reached a point where what I really need to work on is just building more core strength. Until I can invert in the air, there's not much further I can go. On the other hand, a month ago I couldn't invert at all. So, I know I can do it if I practice....

Comments

[gmkieran.livejournal.com]

Would it feel less like bragging if the question were couched differently? Rather than something you took pride in, perhaps something you felt you accomplished (without pressure to look for things that others didn't accomplish) or something you simply enjoyed doing? If I were the instructor, I would be going for examples of those, rather than examples of pride - pride isn't known for team-building. If you feel like you can, you might talk with her about that.

I hope you enjoy the practicing and the results!!! *hugs*

[mermaidlady]

Being proud of an accomplishment isn't bragging and you don't need to have mastered something to take pride in it. Heck, there were times in my aerial classes where a very small gain was worthy of note. Take stock of what you accomplished in class, what was better than last time. Pick one of those things. And don't feel you need to compare yourself to anyone else in the class -- that way lies madness.

[evcelt.livejournal.com]

Can you talk to her privately and explain your issues with public bragging? Maybe make a deal with her that you'll tell her, privately, one thing you're proud of?

I feel for you... that kind of thing can make me feel uncomfortable, too.

[vettecat.livejournal.com]

Could you just smile and say "pass"?

[johnpalmer.livejournal.com]

Well - you probably need to learn to accept legitimate pride about yourself. On the other hand, you "need" to learn that when you're *ready* to learn about that. When it's a bit nerve-wracking, but not flat out scary.

It's possible to say "I did X better than I did last week, and I'm proud of that" and not be braggy and arrogant. So if that's acceptable to her, maybe that's a good start? But again: as I said, lessons are for when you're ready, not for when someone else tells you you're ready.

[siderea]

Ooh, I'm guessing it must be pretty uncomfortable for you that the other students don't have a problem going along with this exercise and doing something that makes them braggy and arrogant and obnoxious. That doesn't sound fun to be around.